| ow! |
[04 Jan 2006|12:15pm] |
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sick. someone fix me. :(
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| fack |
[25 Dec 2005|01:59am] |
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The shining. |
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It is way harder to deal being cooped up here. I need a cigarette. I need a lobotomy.
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| It's 9:10 on Friday night |
[23 Dec 2005|09:10pm] |
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my nana yelling |
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I am in Timmins with my insane family and i haven't had a cigarette in 14 hours.
I'm losing my shit. . . Someone kill me.
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| OMG |
[23 Dec 2005|07:29am] |
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I just looked back at my first ever journal entry and I just realised that I JOINED livejournal out of a rediculous need to vent because I was IN TIMMINS. Why the fuck do I do this to myself every YEAR? I quit christmas. I'd better get married in the next year so I can actually go visit someone ELSE's family for a change. Don't get me wrong, i love my family, but FUCK. Live in fucking Barrie or something not TIMMINS.
Can't wait for my eyes to freeze shut!
YAYYYY!
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| it's 7 am |
[23 Dec 2005|07:21am] |
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And I am leaving for Timmins in 30 minutes. I am sooo tierd, I fucking HATE going up there (BAH!) And in my depleated state I am totally freaking out about all my love life bullshit.
Why does everything have to be so fucking retarded all the time?
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| never again. |
[22 Dec 2005|03:46pm] |
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the go-gos |
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Again. always, again. I vow to never be happy again because I know that I will crash and burn. Every time. I am never falling in love again. you heard it here first. If I ever head back in that direction I am counting on all of you to stop me.
NEVER AGAIN.
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| GAAAAH |
[24 Oct 2005|09:54pm] |
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Misfits - Saturday Night |
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Why must I make everything relationshippy so complicated!? Damn you my psyche! Am I doomed to only want to date assholes for the rest of my life?! WHY!? someone save me from my freakouts!
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| All a girl needs. . . |
[04 Oct 2005|09:10pm] |
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some kind of wierd bluegrass |
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Is a little closure. Now why couldn't I have gotten that 3 months ago? Life is ok once again.
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| ewwww |
[18 Sep 2005|10:24am] |
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Switchblade Valentines |
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Last night I had a dream that my bottom teeth were covered up with my gums and I had to use a razor blade to cut a line in the gums and peel them back so I could use my teeth. that is fucked. What does that mean?! Someone explain my subconscious to me because I think we're in a fight.
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| Hmmm, I think I am .,. . |
[30 Aug 2005|06:56pm] |
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Shut Me Up : Mindless Self Indulgence |
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Your Element Is Fire |
Your passion and emotion are as obvious as the brightest flame.
You make sparks fly, and your passion always has the potential to burst out.
You are exciting and creative - and completely unpredictable.
You sometimes exercise control, and sometimes you let yourself go.
Friends describe you as sensitive, spirited, and compulsive.
Bright and blazing with intensity, you seem mysterious and moody to many.
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| hmmm |
[26 Aug 2005|01:02pm] |
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hot Hot Heat (uch) |
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My elbow really hurts. Why? I can't figure it out.
Ps craig is listening to Hot hot heat and I think I fucking hate them. I didn't before, but now I do.
War does strange things to men.
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| Everymorning |
[25 Aug 2005|11:35am] |
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I wake up and I feel like I am ok and then I get this sickening jolt of real life and I try to ignore it but it chases me for the whole day. Whether it be pop-up visions of past love or sickening mental images of what is happening without me right now. I am trying to run away but this weekend will be the hardest. She will be here. She will be sleeping in his bed. She will be meeting OUR friends. She will be being touched and held and basking in the glory of the man I love. And all I can do is live my life and pretend that they don't exist and that I don't belong where she is now. That he was never mine and that I never want him to be mine again. But it is all a lie. I just have to make myself believe it Right now before I go mad from heartbreak.
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| Sometimes |
[21 Aug 2005|09:58pm] |
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50s-doo-wop compilation |
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Sometimes you see a picture of the boy you love on someone else's Myspace. Then sometimes you wanna cry your ass off. but sometimes you don't because, fuck, I know it is only going to get worse. CryBaby FOREVER!
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| Do I Know You?! |
[08 Aug 2005|01:20pm] |
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None of your business! <3 |
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Arcade Fire |
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Do I Know You?!
1. Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me (maybe/maybe not).
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal.
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| night on the town |
[23 Jul 2005|03:09am] |
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Was exactly what I needed. To all involved (provincial or american based)thank you for being so sweet. Life is not easy for me right now and everyone I have spoken with or seen in the last little while has been so sweet and I can't tell you all how much I appreciate the kindness and friendship you have given me. When everything that you love seems a little dim and far away it is nice to know there is a warm shoulder to cry on and a cold glass of beer to sip. i love you all and I am so happy that I am lucky enough to have friends like all of you around to help me through whatever or the other way around.
Thank you. You mean the world to me.
PS yes nate, I am still alive, thanks for checking ;)
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| Things that make life worth living |
[19 Jul 2005|03:31pm] |
My family
My friends who love me
taco(e) bell
freedom
shoes
Schnieders Au Natural Chicken Nuggets
love
Melissa's garden state Cd
Melissa
Knowing friends are right across the street
Knowing i will see Marilina again someday
My bed.
Getting my tattoo finished on Friday
The ability to feel so strongly about something
Rollerskates
Hope
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| Boo life. |
[19 Jul 2005|03:25pm] |
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Froufrou |
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it has finally happened. though I was ready for it, deep down I couldn't really believe it would ACTUALLY happen. And now it has. And I am broken. this is not something that will go easily. I am not ok with this. I am not ok. But I have to be. And i have to be without someone who has meant the world to me for the last 6 months. And I don't know how I will do it. I have no heart. It is on vacation for a while and we will see if I will ever get it back.
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| Fucking insane. Why are horoscopes so right sometimes? |
[14 Jul 2005|11:49am] |
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A new moon on July 6 may bring an important community project to your doorstep - you may collect signatures for a political candidate, petition local officials to make neighborhood safety changes, or start your own community blog. A friend may be amazingly thoughtful to you this month too, showing you through her deeds the very meaning of friendship. It's a touching time and one you should thoroughly enjoy.
As you get closer to the full moon, July 21, the mood becomes a bit more serious. You may become concerned about certain developments that take place surrounding a romantic relationship. If you aren't getting along with your partner, the path ahead will be fairly clear. But if you are concerned about a lover's welfare, you may be baffled about how to be helpful. Know that your presence will be a great comfort - sometimes just "being there" is enough.
At work, you seem to need to double-up to make progress. You may sign a collaborator / partner / agent this month and if so, great - the work you will turn out together will be first class.
Financially, you have been burning through a great deal of cash lately, and that trend will continue only through the end of July. An artistic or electronic product you design could put a wad of money in your pocket, particularly near July 7.
Try to get as much done early in the month as possible, as your ruler, Mercury, will go retrograde on July 21 for the following three weeks. A weakened Mercury will bring more than your share of delays and mix-ups. The first three weeks of July will be your most productive, so get cracking!
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| Nate is toast DUUUDE |
[12 Jul 2005|07:47pm] |
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humming air conditioning. . .too cold. . .need heat. . . |
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I kick your ass in the miscelaneous jobs dept. kiddo: here goes:
"dresser"/buurger toppings engineer @ licks
popcorn handler @ cineplex
Book worm @ Chapters
Waitress -Nickels
-Oaks Gardens Chinese Restaurant
-The Cock and Bull (Balls) pub on York campus
Candy eater - sugar mountain
Ice cream scooper - "What's the scoop?"
Counter girl - National Sports
Counter girl/ baby cry maker-Sears Portrait Studio
Music seller @ HMV
Bartender- French restaurant
Former funhaus
ElMocambo
photo assistant
sales girl/liar @ get outside
counter girl West Camera
Counter girl/lab girl @ downtown camera
Freelance QUEEEEEN
Photog, Oakville BEAVER (that's right)
photog, Mississauga News
Yeah, I am a professional Counter girl. What can I say?
Everyone post your lovely ex occupations for the world to laugh at. . .you'll like it. can't be worse than NICKELS.
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| Yayyy! |
[12 Jul 2005|02:10am] |
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I wish I was him - Kathleen Hanna |
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YAyy party, what good times. I haven't seen such times since Red's Cocktail. What can I say? We are still looking for things that have gone mysteriously missing and adjusting things that have been fucked with. For example: Where are our bathroom curtains? Craig saw a naked girl across the alley today. Time for curtains before we get arrested. Also: someone took down my wall mirror and then put it back up in a different spot? Wierd. AND it took me like 5 hours to figure out where all my underwear was. That was good times. IT was wierd re-arrangey party rather than distructive for some reason. I will take missing underwear any day. Either way, thanks to all you kids who showed. It is possible that I don't remember seeing you if you came past erm. . .10 pm? but I appreciate the show-up anyway. Yer all troublemakers and that's why I loves ya.
Ps My souvenir (a yucky cigarette burn) may you all know that it is healing poorly and looking kinda gross. If I have to get an amputation I will stuff my arm and put it above the mantle as a token of housewarming 2005.
Also, Brown is officially in L.A. Luvah! come back! we cry and we cry and we miss you already! May emails are necessary. Where is my email!?
Love you lady!
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